I've done a lot of thinking since April 1, and after a lot of discussions and tears and soul searching I've decided to go ahead and take the Illinois bar exam again in July.
I was pretty close to passing this time, so I'm gonna try a new program of study and get this damn thing taken care of this time. Obviously there were a lot of factors that went in to my decision that don't need to be re-hashed here.
Of course I am absolutely SICK at the thought of losing another summer to studying for the freaking bar exam. I went through and looked at my calendar yesterday and I have a TON of stuff going on in June and July - (weddings, gay pride, best friends out of town bachelorette party) in addition to the regular Chicago summer stuff: street fests, pool, beach, Cubs games, drinking on patios, etc.
Not gonna lie, I basically want to cry when I think about spending beautiful days in the library. Studying in January and February still sucked, but it was at least 100 times better than studying in June and July.
So my plan is to get ahead and start studying in May so that I don't have to miss out on everything, although I realize I'll be missing a bunch.