I had a mini freak out last night.
I say mini because I wasn't really freaking out like panicking freaking out but I did spend a solid 10 minutes thinking about how NOT ready I was for Tuesday.
And I did give some serious consideration to postponing until July.
But then I got over it.
Because really, I wouldn't be any better off in July. I'd be sitting here on July 20th thinking "If I just had a couple more weeks, I'd be golden."
But really... is anyone ever totally confident? Well... maybe some people are. But I will never be that person. Because I will never be the person that didn't procrastinate and followed the schedule exactly and did everything I was supposed to do. Never have been, never will be.
Are there still a couple of subjects I haven't even glanced over yet?
Do I have a LOT of work today in the next 6 days?
Is there a possibility that I'll fail again?
But worrying about failing right now is definitely not going to help.
So for now I study. Next week I worry about failing.