When you take the Illinois bar exam, they tell you that your results are coming sometime in the first two weeks of October. However, historically, they have arrived promptly on October 1. Uhhh. That's tomorrow. Weird.
As my friend Amie wrote last year, she received an e-mail at around 9 AM on October 1st telling her that results were in. It appeared that results went out in alphabetical order, and some of her classmates didn't find out until SEVEN HOURS LATER. The ten weeks since the exam have gone by quickly and I really haven't worried about it much, but I swear to God if people start finding out tomorrow at 9AM and I don't have my results until 5PM I will absolutely freaking LOSE IT. Luckily Amie and I both have early in the alphabet last names, so I hope I'm okay.
So, to answer the inevitable question: how do I feel? Well. Last week I was a little nervous and got a knot in my stomach every time I thought about it. This week? I'm totally fine.
The calm before the storm? I've accepted my inevitable failure? Who knows.
I've already read blog posts of people failing other states. I don't know what I'll do if I fail... but I do know that life will go on.
Do I feel confident that I passed? I'm not sure that confident is the right word.
I certainly did not study everything that I was told to. I definitely didn't do enough practice multiple choice questions. And I didn't do any practice essays. The test was really freaking hard. But did I know some stuff? Sure.
Last year 84%of people who took the July Illinois bar exam passed. And graduates from my law school had a higher passage rate. So, do I think I knew as much as 84% of my peers? There's a really good chance.
So basically - I won't be shocked either way, pass or fail. And either way, I'll be drinking (I know, you're shocked)
So, I'll be back tomorrow, with results either way. I'm going out tonight and drinking heavily with lots of friends. I have given my IBABY (Illinois Board of Admissions to the Bar AND YOU!) login and password to my friend Brad and my roommate Kevin, so if I drink myself to death tonight, or get hit by a bus, or just can't bring myself to click, or forget my password, they can find out. If I am dead, I'll make sure to have someone post the results so you know what happened. Ha.
Oh, and tomorrow also happens to be my 500th blog post. So THANK YOU, my fabulous readers, for being with me through all of this! You're the best!