An alternate title to this post would "Please stop telling me to enjoy having nothing to do" and would be a follow up to my friend Thanks, But no Thanks' post titled "Please stop telling me I'm going to pass the bar."
Side note: Alright. I know I just ranted on twitter that I was sick of people bitching all the time, and then I'm going to turn around and do the exact same thing via blog. Consider yourself warned, and feel free not to read.
Please. Please. PLEASE. STOP telling me to "enjoy" this time of unemployment while I have nothing to do. As much as I write about how I hate law students and lawyers and gunners etc etc., I am a somewhat type A personality. I don't enjoy having nothing to do. I lay in my bed all day feeling depressed. Depression leads to continued laying in bed. It's been 6 days since the bar and I think I'm developing bedsores. (only sort of kidding).
Yes I realize when I finally do have a job I will wish I could sleep until 2:00 PM and that my biggest goal of the week would be to get around to emptying the dishwasher. (Seriously, that's all that's going on around here.). But for now? I'm bored.
And really? The boredom I can handle. Drinking and eating and working out take up a lot of time.
(and here's where I commit a major faux pas and talk money)
What I can't handle is that I cannot afford to do anything that would ease my boredom. I currently have less than $200 in my checking account. As soon as my roommate pays me rent for the month I am going to pay for my parking and the bills to keep the lights on.
I haven't paid my condo assessments (homeowners association dues) since June. My mom would straight up kick my ass if she knew this. I've been making bare minimum payments on my credit cards. And my mom would also kick my ass if she knew this. But she doesn't, thank God. Not to mention, it's not like I personally enjoy the thought of my credit score plummeting down because my debt to income ratio is disgusting.
I know other people have it worse than me. And I'm lucky. But that doesn't mean it doesn't suck. My parents are still paying my mortgage. I am not going to have to move home (although technically since my dad owns my home I already am living at home, my parents just don't live here). I am not homeless. But dude, I am BROKE. And I don't have any savings to fall back on, because I've basically spent my entire life in school.
And my parents already gave me money for graduation to get me through the summer... it's gone gone gone now. Not to mention they've been bankrolling my entire life for the last 25 years. I just CAN NOT ask them for money. I can't do it.
Not to mention? I am one of the few who went to law school because I wanted to be a lawyer. And one of an even fewer group who STILL actually wants to be a lawyer. I like working. I also like shopping. I want to work, and earn money, so I can pay my bills, and so I can buy nice things.
So that's where I am. I know it will all work out, but that doesn't change the fact that there is just about nothing I am ENJOYING about unemployment.